I just wanna be a kid again, who cried for his mom once I started pre-school…  and then came back to watch Pokemon at 4 and have powdered donuts. I wish I was innocent.

Life;

Changing and rebuilding a mindset is so fucking hard.. shit, man. It feels like I’m in a shell made of darkness, but deep within is my ol’ self with a shit ton of fire. Fuck man. I don’t know how to ignite it. I don’t know if the flame will even relinquish the darkest corners of my mind enough to let me see. But I can’t decay like this…. my mom… my family… my girlfriend… God, they all care about me. And I’m too blind and ridiculous to appreciate that. I’ve seen the worst of the worst in my head. So bad, I can’t even face those close to me. A sense of guilt, disgust , and sadness is what I have toward myself.. I don’t even know how, but I know I have to find forgiveness… because this fucking sucks. I’ve destroyed my own mind. I’ve thought, and thought, and thought, until the worst things wrapped and strangled my brain. I don’t know who I’am sometimes or if I wanna be fixed… A sense of fear that my perception will forever be abnormal? Who knows! Over thinking to the point of no return is terrible. Stay positive, have fun, and don’t let things get to you. That’s exactly what i’d tell myself before all this shit started…. Oh! and to always have someone to talk with. Because handling shit on your own; feeling like the world is your enemy, sucks ass. Now that I’m here, everyday is a battle, to avoid nightmares from becoming a reality…. to try and see the wonders of life. I lose hope, I gain hope. At the end of the day, I just wish I wasn’t so goddamn sensitive. I love my mom so much, so much. Out of all people, all people, she’s the one i wanna come back for. Yet, I feel like I’ve hurt her the most….even though she doesn’t know it. And that…….. that is the worst feeling in the entire fucking universe.

goodnight and fuck anxiety

some of us just wanna call the Grim Reaper

life kicked my ass, my heart is dying, and I don’t know what to do with my life. 

I’ve fallen so off the grid, it feels like I’m dead already. Growing up a realist/pessimist sucks ass.

I’m dying. And I don’t like it.

jordanparrilsh:

Bruce Wayne watched both of his parents die.

Tony Stark has heart problems and anxiety.

Peter Parker saw his uncle being murdered.

Steve Rogers lost his best friend.

Bruce Banner attempted suicide.

If they can save the world, you can get through this day.

Never stop fighting.

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No relationship is perfect so just find the right one to go through hell and heaven with.
— Mark Patterson (via kushandwizdom)

iguanamouth:

dont worry about it

marielemunsterr:

LITERALLY MY FAVORITE THING EVER.

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